I started a new book yesterday and just reading the Prelude I had to pause. The woman made note to a quote I have heard and read many times. I even have it hanging in my home on a piece of artwork. But reading it yesterday caused me to pause in a different way. To actually take it in to receive it.
"And the time came when the risk to remain tight in a bud
was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
I've been feeling a lot lately. I mean, I'm a feeling person anyway... that's just a fact. If you know me you are probably saying to yourself, "Oh, Yes she is!" But, this year my New Years resolution was to 'Embrace myself'. So, in trying to be better at doing that, just the embracing part, I've had to honestly get to know more about myself. Well, let me tell you, it's an interesting process. It seems weird to say, "I'm getting to know myself." I mean, geeze I'm 43 years old... come on already. But, it is funny and true how I am still getting to know 'me' each and every day. Recently, I have been looking at myself through different lenses and it makes all the difference. Sometimes it's a wonderful 'Ah ha' moment and I want to wave a flag that says "Yay! This is me!" and other times I'm like, "Oh! Shit!" :-)
I have been grateful that through this work towards blooming I have had this beautiful sense of possibility! That there is so much possibility in my life and life in general. A feeling that something is out there waiting for me. Something I haven't reached yet or maybe it hasn't reached me. I don't know what it is.
Maybe it's the effects of Springtime in the air or maybe it's the creative juices I have been feeling lately. Getting back in the studio after Winter and creating new things always brings me to life again. I'm not totally sure where the feeling is coming from but I know I feel possibility! I feel like life it is full of it and something is just waiting to come forth.
So, this quote says many things and I'm sure speaks to each person differently.
But right now it reads to me of possibility, of beauty, of freedom
and definitely makes the risk and journey seem worthwhile...
Maybe not an easy skip around the block or a simple journey
but one that leads to the beauty of blossoming.
I can't wait!